sealskin, soulskin...

I swear this book has moments where it is do in tune with what is going on for me at that moment...

We have been sick on and off since Easter, this past week I have been really ill with a chest infection and laryngitis... I wouldn't normally take 3 days off work, but the dr suggested it and I ran with it, in my mind it would be 3 days while the kids were at school and Mark was at work and I could rest, selfishly just rest, no work calls, no cleaning... As luck would have it,both kids were off school this week on opposite days, so rest was minimal, obviously you have to take care of your family, and I always prioritise everyone else's needs over my own, despite being really sick...

Whenever life gets really human, I have that need... I need solitude, to read a book, do a healing or a reading, get back to my soul/spiritual self... So this was right on point to me after last week...

Women Who Run With The Wolves - Clarissa Pinkola Estes

elixirs of light aromatherapy

Aromatherapy has always been something that I believe in, as a complimentary therapy... I have been following @elixersoflight for ages, and her products look beautiful... I finally made a purchase, thinking about my Piscean babies, and whether these Pisces blends could help ground them... Mark suffers blinding migraines, so I bought him the migraine blend too... And Jordan added in a delicious smelling lavender-lime lip balm! Good mail day today!

new chakra cards...

Ooooooh yeah... Just got these and am already in love! My teacher did a chakra reading for me and it was exactly what I needed at the time... Subsequently it has changed my life... Gave me the confidence to start this page for instance!

Looking forward to doing some chakra readings once I'm feeling 100%...

surrender...

I have been pretty unwell this past few days... I was given three sick days to recover, which I would never usually take, but I have had nothing... So I have been mostly in bed, outside of parental responsibilities (how much easier is parenting when you don't have to fit in work as well!?!), and my son has been home with a cold, so we have been resting together... I thought I should get out one of my Mudras cards to use during my wellness meditation.. Have been giving myself reiki every night too... Anything to be well again!

This is Surrender, and I have to say, mediating on it, I felt really free... Free of my sickly body, responsibilities... Like I was flying... It was only a ten minutes meditation, but it felt like a holiday! Definitely need to use these cards more!

Day of innocents...

I have never celebrated or heard of The Day of The Innocents, but I think this sort of rite would be useful in today's society... The idea of time to spend with other women where they don't have to keep it together about losses of babies or children... It feels like now is a time that we don't talk about these things, we don't discuss miscarriages, and lost children and babies are grieved only for a short while and then it's put away... Like women are out of practise about how to grieve with their sisters, don't know what to say, so feel it is better to say nothing... I don't feel like that's the answer, I think support for these great losses should be ongoing, as the thoughts about them are...

children...

This rings true to me... While my kids are given many things from family members, and they do save up their pocket money for toys, I want to give them lessons, and experiences... I want them to know about other cultures, and learn what they can do to leave the world in better state than they found it... I want them to learn self acceptance, to be gentle on themselves, and learn to love themselves for all of their strengths while working on their weaknesses... I want them to accept others for who they are, not what they can give them, and help raise others up in life...

All of this is why I was worried about ever having children... It feels like such a big undertaking... Especially with afternoons filled with homework, swimming, guitar practice, always trying to fit in meditation and visualisations before bed... I want them to be successful at the chosen career, but mostly I want them to be happy humans who are good to others...

famine...

Speaking about women who have endured famine... Without freedom to create, be fed spiritually, move through the world at her own pace, and finally being free, everything is so new and exciting, you get carried away! You see it in women who get out of bad relationships, or who have been told repeatedly that they aren't good enough, so they stay, but once they get a taste of freedom, things can get a bit crazy... Which can very easily lead back into bad situations...

Harder but more rewarding is to look at the reasons for the famine, the what's and the whys, to ensure that you never repeat the experience...

Women Who Run With The Wolves - Clarissa Pinkola Estes